What I've Done

Feeling as if I've accomplished nothing over the past year, I decided to write a list of what I have accomplished in one day, beginning now:

• Watched two children/family movies.
  
• Laughed
• Tried to free write. Felt bound.
• Unloaded half of the dishwasher.
• Gave the plant some much-needed sunlight.
• Made haystacks.
• Paid student loans.
• Wrote to same loan company asking why they continually mark one bill as past due.
• Logged into Pandora.com & tuned into my Regina Spektor station. Wished my life always had a soundtrack in the background.
  
• Thought about why I feel the way I do about my life in Oregon. Bittersweet.
  
• Freaked out over lack of period -- Day 2.
  *Not unusual since my body is all strung out on hormones & I'm losing my mind slowly*
• Fed the fish. Realized their light finally fried itself out. Probably an easy fix ~ for Steve.
• Did some laundry.
• Cleaned the sink, counter, toilet, and scrubbed the shower really good.
• My world felt upside down. Showered.
  
• Cried out to God, sobbing. Felt peace & assurance that things really will get better.
• Decided not to wear tight clothes. World is crawling upward.
  *Wore yoga pants & an over-sized Bahamas t-shirt Kris gave me years ago. Cried again*
• Finally wrote this list, which I feel qualifies as free writing.

Not a complete waste of a day. Even the sun has decided it's a decent enough day to show its face.